Saturday, November 8, 2008

ecstacy & anguish

It'll take more than Halloween candy to fix what I'm feeling now.

After canvasing and phone banking from 8am-8pm for Obama on Tuesday, I watched the election returns in a room full of African Americans. Overwhelmed with ecstacy, I listened to Obama's acceptance speech feeling proud to be an American, thrilled that the world was watching.

I awoke on Wednesday morning and raced to my computer, anxious to learn the results of Proposition 8. Anti-gay ballot measures in California, Arizona, Florida and Arkansas passed on Tuesday. Ecstacy plummets to anguish in an instant. Now I am trying to hold both feelings at once.

I'm surrounded by people celebrating the hope that Obama's presidency brings while my joy is clouded with despair.

So I've been speaking up. I'm not trying to bring anyone down; I just want my frickin' civil rights too. Halloween is over and I've stripped off my mask. Not even the left-over candy can sweeten how I feel. Mark Twain said that only in the dictionary does success come before work. We've still got lots of work ahead.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

They have a nice selection of marriage equality pins at DeltaSpark (link). These are nicely made metal-and-enamel pins.

Wearing a pin is a tiny thing, I know, but I think this is one of those things where it is important that our support be visible. I have gay friends and family, some are out and some are not, and I want them to know that they are not alone.